okay.

so jaybeep is now beachbabe, and everyone else is waiting.

so far i've said goodbye to 5 people and havent shed a tear. i'm worried about my own possibilities, really.

assuming, although assuming is a futile game, we each get what we want, what do you want?

jaybeep wanted clinical.

cherielai wants opd, or more specifically, to sit down for most of the day (dis best suits you, i tell you).

i would like clinical, but the self-doubt kicks in. now i get mtac. of course, this could prove temporary, but panic is settling, in the way desert sand settles. besides the knowledge side of it, i dont know whether i can do the management side of it, the education side of it, the rapport side of it, the paperwork side of it, the list goes on and on and on.

in other words, i dont know whether i can do the frp side of it.


but we all said this of sem4, sem6, sem8, pp3, various european trips, prp. and here we are now.

thing is... it's more like being buffeted along than arriving here of my own volition (or effort).


on to other matters: is it true that our critical allowance would be cut down to rm100? talk about incentive.