hello. it's skt season again. yep it's like the last one was just last month. it kinda was, actually, it's just that this year the biggest skt is to actually do the freaking thing itself by january, instead of, let's say, november. for the past 2 yrs of my working life i've been doing my skt in november. there's a benefit to this actually, as in, i only have to look at it once, and whatever kpi i didnt achieve for the year i just dont put it in my skt la. but then, with every year must come improvement, so they say, so they say.

so. skt by this week. plan of action after cny. the tricksy thing is, how to work it out so what i plan actually gets achieved by november? too much foresight, this. i cannot work with so much anticipation. for one thing, this would make me break my habit of overstating things in the hope of sounding good and then everyone conveniently forgetting about them later. what's the point of working in the civil service if i can't do this? not like i can make huge plans then delegate them to other people also.

k la whatevs. skt. here we go again.

not really pharmacist related but i need to get it off my chest. heavy tinge of reluctance though if you're a nazi on relevance.

confirm la i'll never go for lasik. you know why? cos i need to save all the cash i can for my TEETH.

why is it that every year brings another tooth problem? in uk it was 118 pounds worth of fillings. last year it was the root canal right before induksi. which for the life of me i cant remember the cost. rm400? 500? and then this year i need a crowning. actually more than one, but i'm going for one first because each bloody costs me rm600. fuck man. why do i have such tauhu teeth. yeah that's what the dentist said. i have tauhu teeth. 'i think you're genetically predisposed to cavities, because i find your teeth very soft, took me no time to grind through at all. like tauhu.' so meanwhile he was grinding through the first tooth for the crowning, he discovered that the one next to it was happily rotting as well. he's one of those semangat dentists who has a tiny videocam to take pics to post up on a big screen tv to show you exactly how your teeth are rotting, and gosh are they rotting. i believe him. i just dont believe in rm600 crownings. time to go hunt for cheaper dentists.

anyway he charges rm700 for rcts. i know this cos he is a multitasker who keeps two to three patients concurrent and to maximise the multitasking he keeps the doors open to all the consultation rooms and the guy next to mine was going amok at the fact he was pushing for an rct ('kenapa tak nak cabut saja? cabut gigi sajala!) and stormed out. haha. so drama.

but fuck. why do i have such tauhu teeth. i'm only 24 and i need 3 crownings (yeah apparently the rct one needs to be crowned eventually, too). at the rate i'm going i'm going to run out of teeth to crown before i get a niece or nephew to study dentistry and crown my teeth for me. yeah what stings the most about this whole shitty situation is the money (pain not so much ever since i realised i could take nsaids before going anywhere near a dentist). sigh.

just got off the phone with kimi. actually had this window open to post up some gloom, but no more clouds left. shampoo story drove it all away, amongst other things. it's funny how the 1/1 (11) is always an overrated day in itself, but the days subsequent, especially when you fill in countless dates on countless forms (and prescriptions) and catch yourself before the 0, or slash it through with a 1 if you weren't quick enough on the uptake (there's a greek symbol like that. what's it called?)... anyway where was i... oh yeah, when in the days subsequent you find yourself thinking about the new year, nothing much really, dont feel any different, but you start remembering all the things nudged off the fast fading 2010, and then you realize with a start, that this year has a full year's worth of space. what should i do, this year?

workwise, a couple of projects. hopefully this year i'll get my action plan out of the way early on and not retrospectively like last year. then again it's not an option, with 44s every which way i turn.

life stuff... definitely have to do and dust ops cabut by this year. by this march, more like. that should be big enough to last the year.

vacations. since phuket is off the charts, then i can seriously consider nz again. but should i spend another couple months worth of salary on the same place? allocate a bit for the reluctant pharmacists. then back to kuching more often.

... did i just make a resolutions list? so fucking mainstream. anyway. time for some apple cider vinegar.