why jaybeep? isnt that beside the point of totally wanting to get away from jde.

and i'm sorry i thought this was spam.

and why petani, like how kedah is the rice bowl and therefore need petanis to man it, or because petanis dont take showers, or do i totally have the wrong person in mind here.


and then.


thing is, i wanted to be a writer and yet i'm not writing now and pharmacy seems to be taking up so much effort and time so might as well devote my life to it, and sometimes it can get interesting really;

and yet even as i type this it elicits from me a what the fuck la wei;

and today i talked to a p one oh sixer who said that she puzzled through her whole life just to find herself (as in find, define, herself. not like wake up to find eh whoa how did i end up here.) in glasgow and now she's back and the she whom she took so much trouble to define herself to be is suddenly irrelevant with the surroundings.

so i can say welcome to the club dude,

or i can say shit what have i become, without realising it.

actually what i can say is, i put a lot of effort into not realising it. dammit. life cant be just about one year spent abroad and there you go there's your zenith.

dunno. we all seem to be missing glasgow one way or the other, except cherie.


dammit one month to end of prpship and i have 2 case reports, 1 assignment, and 2 presentations to be done by monday. and each subsequent week would require the birth of another case report and presentation one upon the other upon the other. what to do it's INTERESTING. i like clinical and i'm used to cp2s and 3s but please la one case report plus presentation per week is too much to ask from a prp.

next week ortho. then surgical then gynae then psy. see jaybeep you just created a place for me to moannnnnnnnnn how is this supposed to be entertaining.

If I could divide and organize my life into neat little parts just like msn, and categorize every single thing, I think life would be perfect. But it's not like that.

:(

And thanks to someone, who sniped my position today. Fucking hell. Just because I don't go around smiling and shaking my head like a stupid bobble-head. And just because I don't like dancing around the bush before I get to the point.

Pah.

Life's unfair.

Enforcement sucks by the way.

I take everything back, if they were to give me the choice of Enforcement or Sabah and Sarawak, I'll take Sabah and Sarawak anytime, anyday.

I hate how, if I wanna take a break from case reporting or doing stupid research project, I can't just grab wallet, keys, jacket (and second-hand fiction) and stride onto the streets for a walk and maybe head to the grocery store to buy dinner or a snack to enjoy while chilling in the Square.

Here it's all drive drive drive, no wonder everybody's so anal.

People need to breathe more.

*sulk

I am so grumpy.

Now that I know for sure that the Sabah and Sarawak prospect are as real as you and me.

So I'll make you a deal.

If I do get Sabah or Sarawak, I am going to all my bosses in my current hospital and tell them exactly what I think about them.

Please, what could they do to me after that? Send me to Sabah or Sarawak? I'M ALREADY GOING, BITCHES!

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